I sat in silence this morning.
It was probably the most peaceful five minutes that I have ever experienced. I’m addicted to noise, physical and emotional. My mind is always racing 30 steps ahead of itself which causes all kinds of confusion, and I am often misplaced among the things I need to do, want to do and wish I wasn’t engaged in.
I always thought silence to be vindictive, forcing me to confront thoughts that I am unprepared to address. But because I am really attempting to practice mindfulness, it wasn’t like I thought it would be. I foster more unwanted thoughts while entertaining all of the noise in my life. Sitting there for five minutes closed the door completely to the crowds of my thoughts. I was alone. It was freeing.
It was probably the most peaceful five minutes that I have ever experienced. I’m addicted to noise, physical and emotional. My mind is always racing 30 steps ahead of itself which causes all kinds of confusion, and I am often misplaced among the things I need to do, want to do and wish I wasn’t engaged in.
I always thought silence to be vindictive, forcing me to confront thoughts that I am unprepared to address. But because I am really attempting to practice mindfulness, it wasn’t like I thought it would be. I foster more unwanted thoughts while entertaining all of the noise in my life. Sitting there for five minutes closed the door completely to the crowds of my thoughts. I was alone. It was freeing.
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